Patience bring peace.

    Assalamualaikum and hi! I just finished watching Idli Kadai, a tamil movie that makes me think and impress a lot. It taught ones to forgive and be patient especially when in rage. How can you do that? I mean how can I do that?😭

My life is full of emotion. I shouted when get mad (sometimes tossing things away) comes with package membebel sekali. But when I get married with Hazri, he is completely opposite of me. He is calm and rational. He managed his emotions well. I learnt from that, but obviously not me hoping it can be done in the blink of an eye (it's hard though to restrain from getting angry).

    This guy named Murugan, a kampung boy who migrate to city and eventually become successful. One day his parents died, he was lost don't know where to head as well as his identity. He continue his father's legacy, a bistro owner who sells idli to the villagers. His father's bistro is an icon to the village, at first the folks feeling skeptical towards him because he left the village and working far from the homeland. Eventually, the villagers accept him as part of the community.

His son's boss hold grunge towards him, tried everything to destroy his life. But he stay true to his father's preaches, 'ahimsa' and how violence doesn't solve anything. At last the villains lose with his kindness and sincerity.

I would give it a 8.5/10 and strongly recommend to watch this film along with your family members, especially in this ruthless world. 

Also, #prayforSudan #freePalestine 💚

Being a parent, indeed is tiring.

     We had this conversation the other day. Actually I started it first, because I suddenly had this noisy voice in my head. That's it I need to talk to someone! 

I used to write my thoughts on Instagram but I felt like it's too public? I wanted to write on a diary but it is not practical like I can carry it everywhere. So I texted my husband;

Need to emphasize that this doesn't related to him at all, nanti dia ingat kita nak attack dia pulak😑

Been there, done that. The hatred I felt towards him makes me thinking, aku akan macam ni sampai bila-bila ke? Will i get myself back?

But after years, I understand how it works.

Haura become more attached to his father now, where most of the time Hazri will bathe and change her diapers. Me? I'm enjoying a tad of time doing chores while listening to my favorite playlist like other people would do. Sometimes I forget how to breathe normally, everything is like a race when Haura was a baby. 

Kesian husband ku, dia memang taktau pape pun pasal gossip haha!

So...being a parent INDEED IS TIRING. Tapi, always remember setiap apa yang kita buat tu pahala tau. Mana nak dapat pahala free? Bangun tengah malam, buat susu, breastfeeding (penat ya Allah!), masak, suap makan, kemas toys, change diapers, ajar anak, you named it semua tu pahala. Oh! now  I understand kenapa berkahwin tu ibadah yang panjang. Banyaknya dapat reflect harini, Alhamdulillah thank you Allah hehe.

She pun nak masuk fasa troublethree pula, so we need to get ready with our gears, parenting mood onz! Sebab tu lah wajib taat ibu bapa (selagi tak melanggar syariat Islam), syurga di bawah telapak kaki ibu😇 Love your mom and dad while they are still around, their dua is our life saver tau! 

It's...2025

Assalamualaikum and hi to my dear self,

    Fast forward to 2025, a lot has changed. Alhamdulillah I'm married to Hazri and I have a daughter named Haura! :) She is 2 years 10 months old now. How amazing Allah is? The dua and hope I've been saying before is happening now, am living in my prayer and dream. No words can describe how grateful I am now, I am super grateful. Guess what? I had my daughter at the age of 25! It's my dream too D:D Ya Allah thank you for everything. 

    I think I will continue to update my blog because social media is boring! Actually I lost my old email, luckily managed to retrieve it back and link to my blog account. Alhamdulillah I really miss to rant here. 

Can't wait to rant over my life, see you again soon :)