I went out for lepak with Aqilah just now. We had a really nice conversation at the oldtown(we laughed like hell, I guess the folks just wanna punch us in the face). I just wanna keep those little unpopular opinion here so I won't forget hee.
We always always always get worried of not having boyfriend because literally everyone at our age already have one! (there even some got engaged recently***whuttt). We were worrying like 💩 why aren't we getting one?? Why there's no boys wants us??? Are we that ugly??? Am I so annoying that no one can cope with??? And those kind of thoughts keep running on our mind.
Day by days, I keep thinking there must be something with us that no one wanna hook with. But then we realized that we might unconsciously put some boundaries between them boys. Or I say we might be too careful to befriend?? I admit my friends and I are very choosy when it comes to find "partner". We want him to be like this, wearing like that cs we've put like a list on what our partner are going to look like. With that high expectations on our mind, we would never ever find one! And when someone might come to approach, we "know" nah, he's not the one. He doesn't have the same taste as mine, so we won't compatible. So that's why, we're 20 and we rarely have one.