A lot of things have changed now. Alhamdulillah I can say most of them are good news. First and foremost, I loose weight. I did it! (even not much but some people say so). I am now 59kg but I think I've gained a little but um as long as it not reach 7 digit that should be okay (? I guess). Secondly, I personally & emotionally think that Hazri has invested his love more for me now. We decided to merisik this coming August. He wants me to take care of myself not only my safety but also this whole relationship stuff. He said things like "what if you found someone else then leave me alone" "pandai2 jaga diri". Slowly I feel everything is getting real. The fact that I'm becoming someone's wife soon ignite the spirit in me to be a much much better person. I learned to respect any decision my parents make, trying to comprehend Hazri's situation instead of asking why, have patience. Sigh. To be patient is the hardest thing to do I swear to God. Whatever this journey is going to look like in the end, may Allah allows me to have a cute lil family with you and also to love you earnestly ever single day.
