We had this conversation the other day. Actually I started it first, because I suddenly had this noisy voice in my head. That's it I need to talk to someone!
I used to write my thoughts on Instagram but I felt like it's too public? I wanted to write on a diary but it is not practical like I can carry it everywhere. So I texted my husband;
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| Need to emphasize that this doesn't related to him at all, nanti dia ingat kita nak attack dia pulak😑 |
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| Been there, done that. The hatred I felt towards him makes me thinking, aku akan macam ni sampai bila-bila ke? Will i get myself back? |
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| But after years, I understand how it works. |
Haura become more attached to his father now, where most of the time Hazri will bathe and change her diapers. Me? I'm enjoying a tad of time doing chores while listening to my favorite playlist like other people would do. Sometimes I forget how to breathe normally, everything is like a race when Haura was a baby.
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| Kesian husband ku, dia memang taktau pape pun pasal gossip haha! |
So...being a parent INDEED IS TIRING. Tapi, always remember setiap apa yang kita buat tu pahala tau. Mana nak dapat pahala free? Bangun tengah malam, buat susu, breastfeeding (penat ya Allah!), masak, suap makan, kemas toys, change diapers, ajar anak, you named it semua tu pahala. Oh! now I understand kenapa berkahwin tu ibadah yang panjang. Banyaknya dapat reflect harini, Alhamdulillah thank you Allah hehe.
She pun nak masuk fasa troublethree pula, so we need to get ready with our gears, parenting mood onz! Sebab tu lah wajib taat ibu bapa (selagi tak melanggar syariat Islam), syurga di bawah telapak kaki ibu😇 Love your mom and dad while they are still around, their dua is our life saver tau!