Its raining outside. My roommates are doing their stuff at this hour. As usual, I'm on my bed already, done taking my bath and waiting for the moon to rise. The day after tomorrow is our finals. I really hope everything went well. May Allah ease for the next 4 days as well.
I just remember, that day when i was stalking myself at twitter on my old account, i found all those things that i posted about you. Our conversation and your photos, as that account is private and no one know about it. I was smiling. How i wish that moment will reincarnate and everything is back at normal. How i wish you didn't asked your mother that question. How i wish i didn't get mad at you. How i wish i had the chance to tell you that i really like you and i don't ever wanna lose you. How i wish you really know that i still like you until now. How i wish i get the courage to whatsapp and ask how are you doing now, have you eat and all those small little things as i want to know that you are actually alright. That sleepless night, finding the right words to tell that i have this feelings of more than a bestfriend to you.
Thank you for used to be a part of me. I can't trust you anymore saying that I'm your only best girl friend, yet you still have a lot of girls friend around you where you can reach them easily. Compared to me, we only talk through whatsapp. We barely meet since the last meet up after spm last year. I'm not like the others. I don't wanna be like your other girls friend. Because I am special. You're special to me. Both of you are special to me. But, thinking about how you made me feel recently I can't do this. It does hurt my feelings. I know you never care. Why bother? Right? Yes, I've learnt so much from you, either bad or good that doesn't matter. The thing is, now I know how to handle this situation, how to handle when I meet a person like you in future. Don't get attached too easily.