23/10/18
I had to watch both of you today in front of my own eyes
I know I shouldn't feel that way
I don't deserve at all to be part of you
But I can not bear watching you two
It's hurt
Then you asked me where am I
I was happy and....we met
Near the roti canai stall, you gave me chocolate 🍫
You asked me to close my eyes, being cute and stuff
Damn, you're not even mine
Though it seems small, but every small thing matters to me
Thank you love❤❤
Then i decided to walk you back
We had an impromptu date
It was my very first time, only God knows how hard my heart was beating
We had silly talk and stuff
A couple of times that our arms bumped into each other
My heart was racing like hell
That was....indescribable
*almost dawn*
We got back from our second track date
Thinking of how good it was to walk only just of us under the moonlight
Sigh...I might be crying again
We talked a lot about each other
Families, music, guitar, job and...his girlfriend
It was tiring to be on the track for 2 hours and a half but it's worth every sweat
We get to know more about each other :)
The last thing that I could remember was about us
"Be honest, you think 'this' won't go far right?"
"Us?"
"Yeaa"
"....*he nodded*"
I know we both know this won't even go an inch anywhere
You love her
She came to you before me
"I love you but I can't. I have her"
And the rest is history....
p/s: I swear to God, it was the coolest date ever!