New year, 2026

    Assalamalaikum, hi dearself. How have you been? Semoga masih kuat untuk teruskan kehidupan as a wife and also as a mother.

    Alhamdulillah, dah masuk tahun baru 2026. We are blessed to be in the 4th year of marriage, 2nd of February 2022 till now. We didn't celebrate, nothing special event on the day but we appreciate and express our gratitude towards each other by simply saying..

"thank you, yang"

Alhamdulillah, she already started mengaji and also potty training from her kiddy this year :')

    Currently, we are busy expanding our busines, Arkelix Studio Works, working extra hours at night to ensure we can have extra money on the end of the month. Penat otak ya, pergi kerja menghadap pc, balik kerja pun menghadap pc. Hazri pun balik je kerja terus singgah workshop pickup order, balik siapkan magnet apa semua, preparing to ship out. It is tiring but, I can say we are happy to do it? (read: sebab nampak duit masuk and best sbb buat benda yang buat kitorang happy also dapat upgrade soft&social skills!)

Finally after two weeks, we are wrapping up with Anagram.

"bila last time kamu holiday eh?"

    When Hazri asked me this the other day, I've been thinking haah eh bila last jalan2? So we decided kumpul duit, planning to spend more time travelling together and with the big family. In shaa Allah, there are 2 incoming family holiday hopefully everything is going well and bless by Allah. Honestly there's a lot in my mind but takda feel lagi nak rant out so I'm just gonna stop here and come back later. 

This morning she chosed her own outfit&style as usual, she memang suka buat kepala sendiri sekarang🙄 hehe whatever idea you come up with, I will always proud of you sayang ibu <3

Don't forget, #prayforSudan #freePalestine 💚

"Why not do both?"

    Assalamualaikum and hi dearself, I hope you are getting better each day :) Remember to smile and better days are yet to come.

luv them <3 *both of them are still single, I always pray for them will get a qawwam man and the one that can bring them to jannah :')

Hari Ahad lepas, I went out together with my best best friends, Jiha and Zazi. Rindu sangat nak lepak dengan diorang so luckily diorang cuti and I'm free we set the date on 19/11 to get a brunch. And then I was thinking kalau lepak makan borak je mesti diorang cam bosan sebab I used to talk a lot tau. Nad tak join so I'm afraid it will be awkward since it's been so long. Also, rasa macam nak feeling nangis tengok movie so I told Jiha,

"nak pi tengok wayang tak? tapi kalau nak santai borak2 okay jewp nak pi makan"

Bila fikir balik diorang mesti okay je nak lepak lama sebab dari dulu diorang memang antara yang senang nak ajak keluar, tak banyak songeh (unlike me lol). Then Jiha said,

"why not do both?"

Time tu kita dah excited okay bila Jiha agreed (and Jiha pun cam Zazi mesti akan okay punya, Zazi laaaagiilaaa jenis tak kisah) hahahaha. Pastu nak pi makan pun no problem, diorang asyik tanya je,

"ainaa nak makan apa? bgtau je kay kitorang ikut je."

"kitorang tak kisah ikut ainaa"

after so long tak makan boat noodle yums hee

Bersyukur tau dapat kawan yang easy going mcm ni, sebab I'm the one yang banyak kepala selalunya ugh annoying dengan diri sendiri haha! Kitorang borak almost 2 hours dekat sini and it was a treasured moment for me to catch up on our lives. Masa nak balik tu ada rasa macam I want to be a little bit longer with them, girls talk..tapi my mum's guilt hitting me every second I'm outside without my daughter. 

You know what? Siapa yang know me well lah, tahu yang kalau keluar lepak metsi ada rasa taknak balik, tapi kena balik sebab ada curfew. Tapi I will always like,

"jomlah singgah rumah kita kejap borak"

"taknak balik lagi😭 kita duduk dalam kereta borak2 dulu boleh tak?"

Kadang2 memang dah sampai depan rumah masih taknak balik. And perangai tu ada lagi sampai sekarang tau. Cuma tak tunjuk sangat because I'm a mother now😖 kenalah behave kan?? But cuma nak cakap yang deep inside I’m still that same child at heart. Adulting is cruel and hard! But life must go on righttt, takkan nak berada di tempat yang sama selamanya? hee thank you korang for willing to spending your precious time with me. Kita kena repeat tau cause I need to keep myself sane.

Till we meet again💙

 

Don't forget, #prayforSudan #freePalestine 💚

Why music is haraam?

    Hi! Currently I'm listening to Noh Salleh performing his masterpiece with Malaysian Philharmonic Orchestra. It brings peace tau in my ears, especially Rahsia Tuhan.

    Why Allah jadikan music tu haram ya? I wonder. In my perspective, I love listening to music that brings me calm. The lyrics need to play an important part, cause I always relate myself to the lyrics. Lagu-lagu noh banyak reflect about love. Either towards our Creator, our spouse, siblings, friends, all kind of love. And they always make me super grateful to have the ability to listen and understand music. Banyak lagi indie band yang buat lagu ketuhanan tau, Fourtwnty, Pusakata etc.

    I love listening to music. But after I read somewhere yang music is actually haraam in Islam, it is hard for me to let go of it. I think I will do more research and readings to confirm if it really haraam or only in certain condition.

Don't forget, #prayforSudan #freePalestine 💚